Building off of yesterday’s post on following your passions, I mentioned that I have to finish my undergrad degree still (only a few more months to go!) in a subject I am merely interested in and not passionate about. Consequently, I have been debating where I want to go from there. Do I want to risk everything for a masters degree in creative writing and then try to find a job in my field? Or should I go to teacher’s college and have a relatively safe job teaching students about subjects I love (English and history, maybe psychology) while using my summer, winter, and March breaks to do what makes me happiest: writing.
What am I going to do for the rest of my life? It’s a question I’ve been asking myself for a while now, and in this post’s aim, really, is to talk myself through to finding an answer to this question more than anything else.
There are days where I feel so absolutely sick of being in school that I would happily keep my current job as a receptionist for the rest of my life, or go back to my old job in telecommunications as a client rep, working in a centralized building in the uppity part of downtown Toronto; this would be the same job where the “lifers” would complain about how much they hate the company and their job, or how everyone there is so miserable. Because this is an easy-out though, I’m not going to hide the fact that I sometimes consider it (not that working for the company was a bad job at all — trust me, there could be a lot worse and I really did enjoy my years there). But a lifetime in telecommunications, processing orders between customers, vendors, and the company I worked for is not exactly what I would call my ideal long-term career.
What then, do I do? This question becomes increasingly prominent in my mind as the deadlines for postgraduate applications looms closer and I find myself asking: “BUT WHICH PROGRAM SHOULD I APPLY FOR?” Do I follow my heart or my brain? Can I realistically follow both?
Though I clearly have not come to an absolute conclusion in the midst of writing this, I have decided that I should apply to both programs — writing and teaching — until I feel more confident that I can make a solid decision for the next two years of my life.
Until then, I’ll keep mulling over this.